There's no place like home

We finally took a step toward home. Home schooling that is. Even before Hannah was born I knew I wanted to homeschool, but over the years my ADD has made me afraid to try. What if I mess her up. What if after 2 years of failure I put her back in school and she is behind. These are the fears that lead me to put her in Kindergarden in the public school this year. Though we have really loved her teacher and have been so pleased with the quality of the school, that ever present desire to homeschool has not left. I have missed Hannah. Though Hannah and I clash more that the others (we are very much alike), I have come to realize just how much I miss her sweet sensitive self. Since Polly has come to live with us it has strenghtened the need for homeschooling in our home. To begin with we tossed around the idea of bringing Hannah home next year for first grade, but as time has gone on we have realized that the need is much more immediate. Polly has many needs and requires much time spent with us. I have felt a great strain in giving Polly the attention she needs while not neglecting Hannah's needs. I have time with Rebekah and Keren while Hannah and Polly are at school but there is no time with Hannah. Polly is struggling with the adjustment of moving into our family and this comes with stress on her and the rest of the family. Hannah is getting lost in this. I came to the decission to bring Hannah home based on these factors. I will be able to spend time with my three kiddos durring the day while Polly is at school and will be freed up to give Polly the time and attention she needs in the afternoon without feeling guilty. I have spoken to the school and have already signed up with an accountability organization that will keep me legal. We will bring Hannah home on Monday the 25th. Now that this decision has been made I feel so great about it. On Friday, I took Hannah out of school early and we went to a homeschool valentines party. I am looking at curriculum and making plans. I really feel that this is a good choice for our family and the fear is gone. I have a total peace about this now. All this time, I have wanted to do this and fear has heald me back. Now that I have been pushed into it by our situation and have found it so freeing.